Things i do...

I do this and do that.. I sound like I am ungrateful or nagging.. sorry to blow my top.. I feel as though regret has taken over you. I sit here and tell my self there is going to be a turn around some day.. Everyday is perfect except those one days where it all comes on like a wave.. I don't think before I speak, things are triggered when things are done or said. I don't mean to be this way, I am sorry but I am just the product of your dismay. I am not here to judge you in all you did or done, but to merely help you guide me and help us get along. I did this for us I said it for me.. but why is it I just can't let things be? I don't wanna be hurt I don't want to cause confusion or delay to our recovery. I just need to talk and let things be free. I can't seem to shake this disease it comes out of me and runs over my selfless degrees. I come to see that maybe I'm the problem and don't know when to decline, the words that come vomiting out as they please. This demon has a hold of me and won't let me go til its satisfied with its demeaning greed. I shake and jerk to get a hold of you to wrap you in our bound to never be alone.. why can't I let things go?? Can we just talk?? Not argue? I just wanna be alive again.. 

The top cake is Thomas the train, for my son that had just turned 3 years of age.. and the bottom picture is a layout that WAS going to go on a cake.. but.. didn't quite go as planned.. so be it.. oh well.. it was nice when i have made it though.. just can't please everyone i guess..

This is a character cake i had made for a friend who just adores invader zim.. this little guys name is Gir :D

There is a wedding cake a "birthday cake" a baby shower cake and a devils food cake with whipped ganache.. Some of these are those that i have made in the culinary school..

More cakes

Birthday cakes i have done.. yes that hello kitty one is tiramisu.. :D

New goals, new me, in 2013!!

This year, i don't only want to set a new years resolution.. but more like a life changing experience.. I have started to eat better.. than i have in the past.. I am trying to completely knock out fast food.. and soda pop. I never eat candy so that is not a problem. It is kind of hard when you are a baker/caker... I don't consume.. but i do taste test which is different cause you only taste you don't eat it.. I have upped my work routines.. to actually make me sweat and not just to make me limber.. I want to lose at least 80 lbs before or on October the 22nd of this year.. So far.. i have lost 1.75lbs in this past week. Which to me is a good start.. I have not given up as of yet.. I had started my work out on the 7th of January, my good eating habits on January the 11th. My husband says he already sees a difference, but i ask him, how when i had just begun? He says that my "curves" are getting more defined.. lol u___u This is a very big deal for me.. so if i make my goal earlier or on time.. is very exciting to me. Later on today.. i will be sharing more of me and my hobbies... and just random things i like.. Thank you to those who take an interest in the things of me.. I don't expect people to come here and read my rantings.. but.. just for me to vent things about me.. and my family.. my home life.. and the aches and pains of life and working out lol

I make cakes too...

This is just a little something I do... I love baking and creating art with food :D and to make people happy :D